no more joggings late LATE late at night!
not funny when the cat calls out for no reason,
not when it's the usual cat which usually ignores.

if it's a pervert I may stand a chance to whack his head;
if it's a flasher I'll just laugh at him and run away;
if it's ah piao.. think I'll just faint / die and that's it.

mum's flying off tomorrow,
and to think I was really happy at first.
now I'm worried :(
hoping saturday night's plan goes on well.



even for a 10% I'll fight hard,
cuz i don't want to regret anymore.

fairytale no longer in my dictionary;
dreams don't just drop from sky,
earn your dreams.

yy here @ 12:36 AM

picture of the day, year, decade



& best friend's way of saying being down to earth


last but not least,
SIM admin sucks,
and I feel like murdering the loser who refused to let us apply for exemptions.
now i'm studying for a test which I don't have to.
the feeling,
sucks :(

I'll still feel the same way after saying it a hundred times.
yy here @ 10:51 PM

saturday :)

visited ms quah's place,
was expecting more people though.


xiaowei's baby's 1st month,
her baby is really adorable,
silent mode all the way :)


7th day of the CNY,
family dinner and more gambling.
homecooked food is simply the best,
better than expensive meals.

and today i'm down with flu again,
this sucks.
yy here @ 11:20 PM

look at yourself and those who are less fortunate.
Now, what's there to be unhappy about?
the half-glass full theory does make much sense.
Perspectives, how you see your life as.
Feeling broken or whatsoever,
everyone sure have their fair share of sad stories,
no such thing as a perfect life.
What makes a happy person stands out is how fast he recovers from those incidents and not let them pull him down.

It's time, taking long enough.
for goodness sake,
FORGET!
"how suitable", tell me that's a piece of shit.
fairytale night, rubbish.
hurt and humiliation crap.

observed how fortunate and unhappy one is,
that's sad.

anyway,
SIM sure has a retarded attendance taking policy

ha and it does feel funny tapping 10 cards.

time to smile :)
yy here @ 4:39 PM

it was sunny, hot, windy, rainy, cold, sunny and windy.
guess up there is feeling more conflicted than I do.

every time I see those egg tarts I would want to get some,
but I know it'd take a hundred years to be eaten.
too different to understand,
and I'm losing patience,
guess it's time's up.

once again,
nothing is as impt as school,
blahhh blahh.
finally done with another 2000 words,
2 tests up next :(

weekends gonna be awesome though :)
yy here @ 1:53 PM

crazy amount of cny goodies went into my stomach,
too late to feel guilty,
one piece of bak kwa takes 4km run to burn all calories.
hah think i'll need to run around singapore already.

angbaos of double dosage!
dream on,
half belongs to my bro.

it was fun gambling yesterday.
my cousins are really awesome :)
it's amazing how fast we've grown up,
seems like only yesterday we were running around the playground playing catching.

lime tastes sour to most people, but not me.
like many other things, it's subjective, so why bother.
yy here @ 7:22 PM

they tried to make her happy, smile and everything.
she knows, but she couldn't.
but she really knows and is very grateful.

an extra angbao,
top up in that account,
gf time even with toothache,
i feel the love this valentine.

thought it through,
now a clearer picture of wants and goals.

ha enjoying telling my decade friend how guys are becoming more retarded,
cuz he's king of the kings.
how fun.


visiting alone sucks,
tmr agn.
get it done and over with.

yy here @ 12:36 AM

the many lessons learnt in a game of mj,
one of which,
never wait for a single tile too long.


ohhh the touch of those tiles just revived the addiction!
then again, so much sch work to do. :(

huat ah! :)
yy here @ 5:09 PM

for many, today is a double joy with the clash of CNY and Valentine's day.

to those without a valentine,
be very happy.
today will be one great day to gamble,
because there's this saying about love luck and gambling luck being inversely related :)

to those with a valentine,
good for you,
cuddle the loves and angbaos :)

to those with valentines,
overdosage may kill.

this is a very retarded post because yours truly start off the new year doing referencing.

anyway, it was reunion dinner at intercon.
over-ate, but it doesn't matter,
this is one of the trademark of CNY.

wishing everyone a happy CNY with many angbaos and valentine's day with many loves
yy here @ 12:10 AM

those words went on repeat mode in my head.
after hours I still can't get the rationale of her telling me all these.

so now what,
all men are dirt and cheap?
that they deserve to get cheated of their money,
or that I should be a lesbian,
or I should start figuring out what people wants from me,
and be wary of others.

everything that I've been trying so hard to deny,
believing that someone will prove me wrong,
all came back to square 1.

the world is so ugly,
or it's just the ppl losing faith in it.

shut from these thoughts,
cuz I don't have to waste my brain cells figuring out.
but i hope that i'll see the light soon.
happiness seems so near yet so far.
yy here @ 1:54 AM

it's so difficult to comprehend what constitutes her happiness.
impossible to be my role model no matter how badly I wished.
trying so hard not to let those opinions affect me,
those that make men sound so cheap and despicable,
and money like God.
n the way she said it,
scares me to the max.

nobody will understand how I feel.
yy here @ 7:33 PM

i've miscalculated,
it's only 3 mths till I'll see brother chiang,
IN EUROPE,
that is if nothing goes wrong.

after more than a decade,
we sat on the same table,
having the same meal,
and brother chiang rushed off to entertain other tables of friends.
god damn it!
still, at least it's a reunion dinner,
great enough :)

place them two together,
everyone thinks they are perfectly matching.
then the next moment,
they are million miles away from each other.
those eyes tell lies,
and the heart..
over and over again,
till the barrier is tougher than diamond drills.
yy here @ 1:24 AM

year 1 is only a pretty picture that makes one thinks uni is not that bad,
into sem 3, everything changes.

when you thought you've the time to take a deep breath,
think again,
no.

after that 1800 words essay was dumped into the box,
it's time for the 2000,
followed by 2 tests,
1 group assignment,
just when you really need to breathe,
EXAMS.

finally it'll b holidays which probably by then you've died of suffocation.

but today, i'll take a short time away from assignments because my bro will be away in Europe for 6 months.




20 yrs 10 months of my life,
this is the first time he'll be away for so long.
it already felt weird when he went NZ for 3 weeks.
6 months is like 8 times more than that,
and the worst part is he will not be here for CNY and my 21st :(

conservative us, not used to showing our love openly.
here i'll say "i miss you",
and if you ever come across to this page,
you will know how much the girl next door appreciates your presence for so many years.

better not cry at airport later
yy here @ 10:16 AM

once in a while I'll get addicted to a song which will b on repeat mode till I'm sick of it.
current love,
talented kid,
nice!



was trying to find the official MV but couldn't.
ohwell chipmunks then..
yy here @ 3:26 PM

I cant help but reflect upon the conversation we had at lunch table..

It seems like whatever sounds like a passing remark, as long as it's from you, I'll take it hard. This time round it's easier, guess I'm just so used to your judging system.

NTU and SIM degrees, everyone knows how their value differ. Not good enough to make the cut, I know, but I don't feel inferior.

Since young, my hard work, how much have you actually seen? When I was taking my O levels, instead of encouragement, all I got from you is a slap of "I'll be happy if she can make it to poly" right smack into my face infront of all relatives.

11 points, topped the family, and you wondered why i defied your every wishes and ended up in poly. Of course I'm no retard to make the decision on the basis of wanting to make you feel horrible, but I'll not deny that it did encourage me to click that submit button.

Then again, as anger slides off and rational thoughts return, I know you will never want to hurt me. Life is full of choices, I can either feel upset and miserable about it, or treat it as an incite to work harder. Previously, the greedy me took both. Now, I'll just stick to working harder and prove my worth.
yy here @ 3:07 PM

sorry pains me,
i dun need any.

love ur smiles,
hate ur frowns.

hating my insensitivity n temper
yy here @ 12:20 AM

so many things not within my control.
things i wana keep close leave cuz of so many factors.
things tt shld b gone stuck to me like super glue.

i hate boring friday n sat nights,
they used to b fun.
now it's -----.
all cuz i'm a full time undergrad?

y still there after so long.
feels like snake n ladder n i've landed on snake agn.
yy here @ 10:16 PM

tt bloody hell sucker grew too heavy from sucking my blood that i slapped it before it can fly off hahaha now it's a dead specimen lying on my notes. RIP
yy here @ 9:21 PM