i heard that soldiers write their last letters before they go to battle.
ha my mini battle starts tmr,
first paper,
so here are my last words.

"get me out of singapore when this shit ends"

good luck SIM-rmit ppl :)
yy here @ 10:50 AM

i always believe tt when u lose sth, u will gain sth better.
now i'm beginning to lose faith.

seriously,
$ do fall frm sky.
i'm so sure cuz i'm e one who drops them.
but it's nv my job to pick up.

god damn it.
e amt of cash n e number of mobiles that i had lost,
i think i could hv a vry nice holiday at a vry nice place, hving a vry nice time.

i need a plan.
like not bringing more than $5 cash n my hp.
but that wld b stupid cuz i wld die in a case of emergency.

pissed with myself
yy here @ 8:08 PM

away from books..
feeling a little more confident alrdy.
just need to suck in more knowledge n i'll b fine.

she believed cuz she cared,
n she got fooled agn cuz she did.
but tts y she's bestie,
dun care being played or wad,
we know she's always there.

moral of e story,
heard bfore e boy crying wolf story?
yea. dun care after third.
though i usually take e first.
hmm i think this is second..

wooo i c 6th nov alrdy.
nap time!
yy here @ 8:19 PM

yy here @ 4:18 PM

DAY 3 @ this cold empty office
ohwell not really empty today cuz finally ppl coming in.
but vry cold.

i'm aint here for no reasons.
some things rly happened.
N I'M BORED.
hurhurrrr till 930pm today.

happy news.
--- --- got gf, finally.
those who know will know.
(i'm not like someone announced it so big on fb for him.. hurhurhur)

not too long ago..
i rmb him saying tt he dun intend to look for a gf
cuz he wana concentrate on other aspects of life like earning $$.
ohwell.. i guess when love comes it's unstoppable.

not too long ago..
i rmb him agreeing with me tt i dun need a guy so soon.
now he ask me to faster go find one.
!#$%^&*() change so fast huhh. ;p

hahah but yea.
it was great news n evryone is happy for him.
hope things go well for them.

nightmare
i just looked at HMT.
howww how m i to cramp so many shit into my head.
O.O

9days; 16days countdown
i'm missing youuuuuu..

freedom
yy here @ 1:17 PM

I was reading CLEO n came across this.
ha kinda interesting :)

1) He doesn't broaden your horizons
2) Your friends don't like him
3) He puts you down
4) He doesn't keep his word
5) You're embarrassed to introduce him
6) He doesn't make you smile
7) You make excuses for him

Source: K Eisman, N Elphick & E Bartle (2009) 'The 7 signs you're dating down', Cleo, no. 182, November p.136

gf, if u r reading this,
i cant ans to love problems.
but i know 1 thing
拿得起要放得下，
放不下就别拿起.
n when somebody good comes along,
tryy.
nv try nv know.
we r only 20! :)

this shall b e last post till exams end,
unless sth major happens,
which most prob not cuz i'm goin to 闭关修练.
6th nov,
can't wait alrdy,
many things to look forward to :)

the better things in life,
think positive n smile thru.
yy here @ 7:23 PM

500 days of summer sets me thinking.


the risk of opening the door to love is to get hurt.
some ppl, they r afraid of getting hurt n they built an incredibly tall wall.
u may fall, very hard n painful,
still u hv to pick yourself up n move on finding sth greater.
no summer? get autumn.

bipolar shit going ard
yy here @ 5:08 AM

15th october,
mummy's bday.

one strong woman she is,
physically n mentally.
evrytime i put myself in her shoes,
i wld wonder how wld i hv survived.

all these years,
the love n care she gave,
vry abundant.
e trouble and worries i gave her,
vry abundant too.
sometimes i wished i was a better daughter,
yes.. regretting my rebellion period.

n i only wish that she's truely happy.


this is perhaps the only love i know will exist for life,
family love.

1 litre of beer,
awfully bloated.

swollow the books
yy here @ 3:32 AM

introducing "surrogates"


not too bad a movie.

"how nice if i can have 10 duplicates of me. steph 1 go study, steph 2 go kbox, steph 3 go slp, steph 4 go exercise, steph 5 go out play, steph 6 go accompany MT, e rest go earn $$. e tot of it alrdy makes me happy."
mentally exhuasted.
will survive anyway.

sometimes i wished i could rly help her.
but i can't,
i'm so exhausted
tt i cld barely save myself.
i guess evryone just hv their fair share of troubles,
once agn,
god is fair.

empty wait,
so stop being a fool.

time heals pain
yy here @ 8:02 AM

couldn't get to sleep..
soo here i m :)

i was kind of moody for e past few days.
n i feel 10 times worst when i couldn't concentrate on e books.
but after today's meet up with a really long time no c fren,
taking a day off,
to fill it with smiles n laughters,
i feel so much back on track.

i saw my ex student with a gf,
he's sec 5.
i can't help but thinking,
awww so cute,
first love!

somebody suggested to study at night where there's less distraction,
true.. but dark circles r way more distracting.

frowns n sorrows vs smiles n happiness

yy here @ 1:28 AM

i love this feeling.

e after rain,
lying on my sofa,
listening to e oldies from nxt door,
n birds chirping.

it makes me feel like doing nothing.
yy here @ 2:12 PM

one year ago,
we were away @ thailand,
we took many photos.

friday night,
we were away @ bugis,
we still took many photos.


it was a great night :)

dead tired after jumping laughing posing,
shan't wait any longer,
bedtime!

hmmmm
yy here @ 12:32 AM

in order to make my life easier,
i always carry this mindset,
god is fair.
nobody can own evrything good,
everyone has their fair share of unhappiness,
just mayb happen at a different point of life.

as i watched her sat on his lap,
chatting n smiling,
i couldn't help but wonder,
if 12 yrs ago i knew how distant we will b,
i wld nv ever let time go so easily.

i was contemplating if i shld blog this out.
but i think this serves as a good reminder,
to treasure evryone, evrything,
significant, not so significant,
cuz e nxt moment it cld just disappear.

simple happiness,
some wanted it so badly,
some took it for granted.

n regrets in life,
some can b corrected,
some can nv b.

i still own e chance to correct my mistakes,
just need to figure a way.
y so difficult to say those 3 words.

time
yy here @ 11:42 PM

i tot kids these days play with PSP or Wii.
unexpectedly saw 5 primary sch students
playing w bon fire @ serangoon park,
my fave park.
they r from my pri sch.

i think kids of e future might set bombs.
yy here @ 2:52 PM

Sunday's family dinner :)


Brozeit, a german bar & restaurant.
there's 2 outlets.
the one @ raffles city is e original,
but e one @ vivo celebrates Oktoberfest.

it serves better Weissbier than Timbre.
4 kinds of beer on tap,
can ask to sample bfore ordering.
from light to dark, i chose e third.

FOOD was undescribable,
ha maybe i was too hungry.
the smoked salmon salad n gordon bleu,
best i ever had.

& of cuz,
i love dining with my mum n bro.

mayb one day,
mayb not.
yy here @ 12:39 PM

THE YEARLY AFFAIR

8 yrs n counting,
such bond is impossible to break.
n when we brought back old memories,
still so much laughter n fun.

night out @ timbre n MINDS cafe.
roast duck pizza rocks.
beer was great.
alcohol n laughters,
face went exploding red.


with morning law class,
noon photography class,
night timbre,
midnight MINDS,
huge knock out.

it was not about the venue, music or games.
what made it great was the company.
total madness, absolute fun.
"see you guys nxt yr"

yy here @ 6:23 PM

today my 12 yr old student told me,
"my bro's fren admires u".
after which tt 16 yr old HOLYHIGH junior kept peeping thru e window.
LOL i almost drop dead laughing!

ohmannn, mayb i do look 16!
ahahahaha :))
(okay, dream on)
ha but it did remind me of sec sch days,
always purposely pass by the classroom of my crush,
bio alittle also shiok!
those days those days..

comm law results r out!
not too bad, not tt great.
hoho must chiong for exams liao la.
last class tmr,
here comes study month!
(poly was only study week)
shall balance play n study,
i hope.

i'm typing while a lizard is parading at the window.
disgusting looking fellow.
shall retreat to my room.
gd night ppl.

i'm not rich, but i'm sufficient,
in many aspects. :)
yy here @ 10:42 PM

when things went wrong,
some ppl broke down,
some cried,
some kept quiet,
some learnt and became stronger.

of cuz e last category is the optimum,
but it takes time.
feeling sad is normal.
cry if u must, but not for long.

some things r just part n parcel of life.
wad to do,
not every after rain there's rainbow
n not everyday is payday.

life is too short to have many sad days.


ohhh damnn,
it's tuition time.
yy here @ 11:56 AM

I’m back to blogging!

It’s been almost a yr since my last blog entry.
cldn't recall my wordpress n blogger links, less say my user IDs.
tried 101 ways to link here n there to retrieve but..
aye nvm. e new will not come if e old does not leave.
anyway finally created a new blogger account! :)

I gave up blogging cuz I was too lazy n life was overly crazy.
now i'm back for obvious reasons.
I'm bored n life is back to peace.

okayy. boring stuff away.

this post shall end off with my usual wish.
one that nv comes true.
may $$ drop from sky.

stay tuned while I go find some inspiration.
yy here @ 6:40 PM